2013 was the hardest year of my life. What wisdom cannot teach, rock bottom can. I realized that sometimes change is forced when I don’t expect it, and it’s not easy. But breakdowns can lead to breakthroughs when I open myself up enough to feel and deal instead of burying the pain. It is still a continual process, but my relationship with God and my family is stronger than it’s been in years. For the first time, I am finally making confident decisions about my future whether I’m sure or not. A lot of change is happening in 2014. I feel it in my bones. I feel it in the depths of my soul.
I am greeting the New Year with open arms and an open heart! I feel like this is just the beginning, and even though I am still dealing with my hurts and insecurities I know I’m on the brink of something amazing. I’ve realized on my trip how strong I am mostly because people have told me, but I am here on purpose for a purpose. Truth has been spoken into my life the last two months from people I barely know but somehow they say exactly what I need to hear. I want to take responsibility for everything in my life in 2013 because I allowed it in my life. I allowed things to affect me, people to hurt me, and guilt to dictate me. I know it’s a daily decision, but today I choose to release all of this and leave it in 2013.
I’m not big on resolutions. I honestly haven’t thought about any, but I am walking into the new year with my head high and my heart full of love. I am open to change, and I know it’s coming.
Happy New Year from Zanzibar!